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Neurotic Flashbacks and COVID Futures
Jul. 19th, 2020 10:49 amSo it's been another week and I've just had a lot to do. I started this entry instead of playing a computer game for the first time in awhile. I honestly would spend more time on here, but I feel like Michelle prefers the company during the weekends so I usually stay in close contact or visual proximity.
Work's been as blah as ever. The position I applied for apparently went away: it was associated with reporting to a Director of Marketing... whom they are looking for right now. There's a chance it might come back. I certainly hope so, I want a chance to do something else.
Otherwise, the past few weeks have been the same grind as before. I work, I live, I breathe.
Recently, every so often I feel my neuroticism kick in though, and I remember all these microaggressions that hit me in the past, like not even things that had significance towards shaping me. For example, I remember this one woman who talked to me online in a friendly manner about some survey she was doing for a joke post and I was hoping it would mean I'd talk to them on a more regular basis (I should have known better since when I talked to her again, one of her immediate responses was "I have a boyfriend"). Another involved an incident in a restaurant where some woman was staring hard into me and I was the only other person there waiting for an order. It's all shit where I've felt awkward at one point or another. I don't know why my brain retains this stuff and I got to wonder if I'm going to think back to things like this even as long as my elderly days.
Times like this make me wish I was medicated. Then again, the healthcare system is broken, so maybe not.
Other stuff
So this weekend we replaced a light switch, got a second cherry pitter (the first was good enough to justify a second), made cherry jam, cleaned up the slaughtered carnage of a thousand cherries, found a place that made pasteis de nada--this is a big thing for Michelle, who loves her Portuguese cuisine, and the fact that it was better than what her parents normally got from Newark excited her--got groceries, made 3/4 gallons of cherry jam, cleaned the kitchen.
The garden is going. Beans are finally starting to shoot runners, my zucchini plants are gigantic spiny menaces, some of the garlic has not survived but that's to be expected. Tomatoes are fruiting too, but nothing ripe yet.
One of my D&D players tested positive for COVID and she's the one player that seems to express the most anxiety.
On that note, Michelle is getting her Portuguese citizenship in case things go more sideways. I've got two more years before I can tag along on this idea, but more importantly, it means going to the Portuguese consulate in Boston, aka a zone we should be avoiding for COVID spread.
We're prepped for it, but that was the main reason for our grocery run since we're going to try to avoid any grocery runs for a week at least while we're under self-observation. COVID has been spiking in the state and there's a lot more tourists around since the numbers have been so low, so we're a little skeptical about things staying safe here.
Okay, enough of this, I'm going to look at whatever you guys posted recently as I bash mechs.
Work's been as blah as ever. The position I applied for apparently went away: it was associated with reporting to a Director of Marketing... whom they are looking for right now. There's a chance it might come back. I certainly hope so, I want a chance to do something else.
Otherwise, the past few weeks have been the same grind as before. I work, I live, I breathe.
Recently, every so often I feel my neuroticism kick in though, and I remember all these microaggressions that hit me in the past, like not even things that had significance towards shaping me. For example, I remember this one woman who talked to me online in a friendly manner about some survey she was doing for a joke post and I was hoping it would mean I'd talk to them on a more regular basis (I should have known better since when I talked to her again, one of her immediate responses was "I have a boyfriend"). Another involved an incident in a restaurant where some woman was staring hard into me and I was the only other person there waiting for an order. It's all shit where I've felt awkward at one point or another. I don't know why my brain retains this stuff and I got to wonder if I'm going to think back to things like this even as long as my elderly days.
Times like this make me wish I was medicated. Then again, the healthcare system is broken, so maybe not.
Other stuff
So this weekend we replaced a light switch, got a second cherry pitter (the first was good enough to justify a second), made cherry jam, cleaned up the slaughtered carnage of a thousand cherries, found a place that made pasteis de nada--this is a big thing for Michelle, who loves her Portuguese cuisine, and the fact that it was better than what her parents normally got from Newark excited her--got groceries, made 3/4 gallons of cherry jam, cleaned the kitchen.
The garden is going. Beans are finally starting to shoot runners, my zucchini plants are gigantic spiny menaces, some of the garlic has not survived but that's to be expected. Tomatoes are fruiting too, but nothing ripe yet.
One of my D&D players tested positive for COVID and she's the one player that seems to express the most anxiety.
On that note, Michelle is getting her Portuguese citizenship in case things go more sideways. I've got two more years before I can tag along on this idea, but more importantly, it means going to the Portuguese consulate in Boston, aka a zone we should be avoiding for COVID spread.
We're prepped for it, but that was the main reason for our grocery run since we're going to try to avoid any grocery runs for a week at least while we're under self-observation. COVID has been spiking in the state and there's a lot more tourists around since the numbers have been so low, so we're a little skeptical about things staying safe here.
Okay, enough of this, I'm going to look at whatever you guys posted recently as I bash mechs.
