A Shadow Behind a Desk

I just found out one of my coworkers who has been notoriously tardy, socializes instead of gets results, and lets her teammate work past normal hours just to get her materials out on time also got a better performance evaluation than me for last year; the year when I forced myself to take more responsibilities, spend my days typing up material for the issues, double and triple check my work, and help out the rest of my teammates so that they have less to work with (all of which by the way gave me an "average" mark throughout).

This realization just depresses the fuck out of me. I want to find a new job but I don't even know where to look and to be honest it's so depressing that I can't even feel the energy to do that right now. We did our tax returns and noticed that our pay is almost the same and given how little attention I am given, I guess I should say "no shit."

Speaking of which, if we didn't file joint, I'd also owe the feds money because I work two jobs. Combined, we don't make median so we get a lot more. One step forward, two steps back.