The Middle Middle Man is Me!

It has occured to me that as someone suffering from acute anxiety issues, it has to do with the fact that whenever I converse with anyone, be it friends, relatives, or people I normally have nothing to do with for that time being, I end up playing this game of sharing thoughts. Strangely enough, there is also always this one point in my life when I will end up stepping on people's toes in the process.

Now, mind you, the toes I step on are never the hardy ones with strong tendons and healthy bones that people shrug off. These metaphorical digits are usually the unusually fragile ones that, when in contact with anything abrasive, I end up creating a huge commotion from as a result. I think it has something to do with my upbringing.

The title, "The Middle Middle Man" just represents that sort of person I am. I have ideals that are too liberal for conservatives and yet too conservative for liberals. Whenever I think of the better good, I always try to look at it from a different perspective from the ones other people play. Perhaps this actually makes me more of "The Devil's Advocate," if it wasn't for the fact that I actually agree with people during certain things and not with others.

Take for example vegetarian/vegan cuisine:

Eh, I live with it; my dad owns a macrobiotic restaurant so I know a shitload more about it than your average joe. I'm serious, I have to answer people's questions on nutrition from time to time whenever they come around, so I usually end up having to look this stuff up for people.

But the truth is I'm not even a vegetarian/vegan. I'm the omnivorous human vacuum. Er, I used to be at least: too little exposure to beef products forced me to be unable to handle beef anymore. Regardless, I eat practically anything (aside from the latter).

I find vegetarians to be some of the strangest people as well. Some of these "health-minded" individuals obviously know a thing or two, but they always forget one important thing or another about eating "healthy." To be frank, most high school and college students that are vegetarians seem to be dilettantes when it comes to vegetarianism and as a result suffer from malnutrition. And what the hell is up with some of these things they eat? Vege weenies? Vege bologna? If you can't eat the real vegetables then stick to your life as an omnivore! I'm surprised that these people can also be the same people that are also against genetically manufactured food.

This example was inspired from watching "Bullshit." It made points that made tons of sense to me, among those the fact that organic farming is very, very inefficient and ineconomical. Think about it: why do you think organic tomatoes cost so much more? It was even stated that, "if we were to cover the earth with organic farms, we would only have enough food to feed 2/3 of the entire world." Where's the extra food from that?

This probably makes me seem like a pro-meat person, but get this: meat constitutes for a very small portion of my diet. I spend most of my time at Subway or making meals where the meat's role is mainly for flavoring the dish. If a ratio of meat even half equal to the vegetables I eat, I end up getting hours of indigestion. Fun, huh?

This is my point though. My views are too strange. I respect homosexuals enough to constantly argue against Christians for their sake even though I never really am around any (I think I either scare them or I'm just not trendy-looking enough). I hate war, but I love military technology (remember that before the Information Age, science always grew the fastest around things aimed towards the military). Hell, I'm an advocate for animal rights but I know that domesticated animals have almost NO chance of survival in the wild and that unchecked animals (deer) can lead to overpopulation (Did I mention that I hate hunting even though I know it's necessary to keep these numbers down?).

I wonder if King Solomon felt like this. The guy must have been the loneliest guy in the world, stepping on tiptoes all the time in case he insulted someone by accident just because he tried to see things fairly. Perhaps that is what fairness means: being the ultimate hypocrite.

The Middle Middle Man is Me!

It has occured to me that as someone suffering from acute anxiety issues, it has to do with the fact that whenever I converse with anyone, be it friends, relatives, or people I normally have nothing to do with for that time being, I end up playing this game of sharing thoughts. Strangely enough, there is also always this one point in my life when I will end up stepping on people's toes in the process.

Now, mind you, the toes I step on are never the hardy ones with strong tendons and healthy bones that people shrug off. These metaphorical digits are usually the unusually fragile ones that, when in contact with anything abrasive, I end up creating a huge commotion from as a result. I think it has something to do with my upbringing.

The title, "The Middle Middle Man" just represents that sort of person I am. I have ideals that are too liberal for conservatives and yet too conservative for liberals. Whenever I think of the better good, I always try to look at it from a different perspective from the ones other people play. Perhaps this actually makes me more of "The Devil's Advocate," if it wasn't for the fact that I actually agree with people during certain things and not with others.

Take for example vegetarian/vegan cuisine:

Eh, I live with it; my dad owns a macrobiotic restaurant so I know a shitload more about it than your average joe. I'm serious, I have to answer people's questions on nutrition from time to time whenever they come around, so I usually end up having to look this stuff up for people.

But the truth is I'm not even a vegetarian/vegan. I'm the omnivorous human vacuum. Er, I used to be at least: too little exposure to beef products forced me to be unable to handle beef anymore. Regardless, I eat practically anything (aside from the latter).

I find vegetarians to be some of the strangest people as well. Some of these "health-minded" individuals obviously know a thing or two, but they always forget one important thing or another about eating "healthy." To be frank, most high school and college students that are vegetarians seem to be dilettantes when it comes to vegetarianism and as a result suffer from malnutrition. And what the hell is up with some of these things they eat? Vege weenies? Vege bologna? If you can't eat the real vegetables then stick to your life as an omnivore! I'm surprised that these people can also be the same people that are also against genetically manufactured food.

This example was inspired from watching "Bullshit." It made points that made tons of sense to me, among those the fact that organic farming is very, very inefficient and ineconomical. Think about it: why do you think organic tomatoes cost so much more? It was even stated that, "if we were to cover the earth with organic farms, we would only have enough food to feed 2/3 of the entire world." Where's the extra food from that?

This probably makes me seem like a pro-meat person, but get this: meat constitutes for a very small portion of my diet. I spend most of my time at Subway or making meals where the meat's role is mainly for flavoring the dish. If a ratio of meat even half equal to the vegetables I eat, I end up getting hours of indigestion. Fun, huh?

This is my point though. My views are too strange. I respect homosexuals enough to constantly argue against Christians for their sake even though I never really am around any (I think I either scare them or I'm just not trendy-looking enough). I hate war, but I love military technology (remember that before the Information Age, science always grew the fastest around things aimed towards the military). Hell, I'm an advocate for animal rights but I know that domesticated animals have almost NO chance of survival in the wild and that unchecked animals (deer) can lead to overpopulation (Did I mention that I hate hunting even though I know it's necessary to keep these numbers down?).

I wonder if King Solomon felt like this. The guy must have been the loneliest guy in the world, stepping on tiptoes all the time in case he insulted someone by accident just because he tried to see things fairly. Perhaps that is what fairness means: being the ultimate hypocrite.