Been Away Too Long

Yup. Been vegetating and now I feel like I need to type up an excuse. I've been working on my transcripts for once and making sure the papers go through correctly. For some odd reason, I cannot finish my stories and it's annoying me, but at least I'm sleeping right and I have a job, an actual decent "make-enough-money-to-have-some-windfall" job.

At the current moment, I am writing up another college essay. Damn, I wrote these admission things so many damn times when I was younger: I still have 14 of them stockpiled into a disk, finished and unfinished. I'm tempted to make it on how everyone tends to think I'm younger than I look (believe me, it happens quite a bit).

My Western Civ professor was bringing some profound insight into politics for me. Nothing you haven't heard before, though I still find it ridiculous that Bush wants a war because he wants to do what "his daddy" did. That and hydrogen cars: the bastard should have added financial benefit for hybrid engine cars or changed the emission laws a bit to allow diesel cars to ease up fuel consumption. His plan is like choosing pipe dreams over immediate benefit. He probably chose the pipe dream to make sure we still suck up fossil fuels.

I still can't get over the fact that she was suddenly looked at as "American" just because of 9/11 (one person that called her an American called her a nigger ten years ago). Her surprise comes towards other African Americans who felt the same discrimination the Arabs had but instead like to fan flames against them; I swear, this country is going down the drain. Another point she likes to point out is how the media pokes at how Yassir Arafat is responsible for all the terrorist acts in Israel, but whenever something wrong happens in the US, we rarely blame the president but one of his congressmen instead. The gist is that Yassir Arafat couldn't be responsible for EVERYTHING including what people under him do even though it seems that American policy likes to aim towards scapegoats. Speaking of scapegoats, we also discussed American foreign policy: America likes to think of it as the big balance scale for the world, but at the same time, it only plays peacekeeper for countries that either pose as threats to the US or that have resources they want. There's a country in Africa that's so destitute but so geographically worthless that children die there in droves and the US does nothing for it in terms of care packages. Apparently, we were even so ignorant that in the 80s before Nelson Mandela was freed, South Africa was being discussed and one of the senators said that this "Apartheid person must be killed." Sigh.

Finally on an odd note, people who stopped talking to me are talking to me again. Even more oddly, all of them are women whom I think have used me for some reason or another (No, Adi, you are not one of them, but if it makes you feel better you can pretend you're one of them). I don't know how to react to it, though thinking made me remember again to keep myself careful again... why does this have to happen a week and a half before the evil holiday??

Anyway, I'm tired, I must finish this essay, and I still have stories to finish as well. I'll post it in due time... or I'll just forget it and try to remember it again.

Been Away Too Long

Yup. Been vegetating and now I feel like I need to type up an excuse. I've been working on my transcripts for once and making sure the papers go through correctly. For some odd reason, I cannot finish my stories and it's annoying me, but at least I'm sleeping right and I have a job, an actual decent "make-enough-money-to-have-some-windfall" job.

At the current moment, I am writing up another college essay. Damn, I wrote these admission things so many damn times when I was younger: I still have 14 of them stockpiled into a disk, finished and unfinished. I'm tempted to make it on how everyone tends to think I'm younger than I look (believe me, it happens quite a bit).

My Western Civ professor was bringing some profound insight into politics for me. Nothing you haven't heard before, though I still find it ridiculous that Bush wants a war because he wants to do what "his daddy" did. That and hydrogen cars: the bastard should have added financial benefit for hybrid engine cars or changed the emission laws a bit to allow diesel cars to ease up fuel consumption. His plan is like choosing pipe dreams over immediate benefit. He probably chose the pipe dream to make sure we still suck up fossil fuels.

I still can't get over the fact that she was suddenly looked at as "American" just because of 9/11 (one person that called her an American called her a nigger ten years ago). Her surprise comes towards other African Americans who felt the same discrimination the Arabs had but instead like to fan flames against them; I swear, this country is going down the drain. Another point she likes to point out is how the media pokes at how Yassir Arafat is responsible for all the terrorist acts in Israel, but whenever something wrong happens in the US, we rarely blame the president but one of his congressmen instead. The gist is that Yassir Arafat couldn't be responsible for EVERYTHING including what people under him do even though it seems that American policy likes to aim towards scapegoats. Speaking of scapegoats, we also discussed American foreign policy: America likes to think of it as the big balance scale for the world, but at the same time, it only plays peacekeeper for countries that either pose as threats to the US or that have resources they want. There's a country in Africa that's so destitute but so geographically worthless that children die there in droves and the US does nothing for it in terms of care packages. Apparently, we were even so ignorant that in the 80s before Nelson Mandela was freed, South Africa was being discussed and one of the senators said that this "Apartheid person must be killed." Sigh.

Finally on an odd note, people who stopped talking to me are talking to me again. Even more oddly, all of them are women whom I think have used me for some reason or another (No, Adi, you are not one of them, but if it makes you feel better you can pretend you're one of them). I don't know how to react to it, though thinking made me remember again to keep myself careful again... why does this have to happen a week and a half before the evil holiday??

Anyway, I'm tired, I must finish this essay, and I still have stories to finish as well. I'll post it in due time... or I'll just forget it and try to remember it again.