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zesty_pinto) wrote2025-01-14 05:41 pm
zesty_pinto) wrote2025-01-14 05:41 pm
Refreshed, Strengthened, Fired
So I'm writing this at home. Montreal was (surprise!) very cold. It was also very beautiful.
I also saw some of the worse parts of it; for example, the homelessness is very obvious as a number of them sleep under the brutalist designs of Bonaventure station--symbolism? On the other hand, I saw people allowed to protest for Palestine as well as show solidarity towards rail workers. The art programs that are still publicly funded also reflect the fact that it's a beautiful city and there's so much art and shows that I am going to have to partake in not-legal means if I want to watch because they support the fucking arts!
Hell, you want something really petty that doesn't matter but reflects how impressed I am up there? Their sandwiches are better.
Well, Perrigo's are, at least. It's a simple pre-made sandwich, but the quality is so much better compared to anything I pulled randomly from a Cumberland Farms or Wawa and that kind of annoys me that everyone's just so casual about it lol
I could give you a breakdown of what it was like getting there but I'd rather do it with photos and those I have no time to process.
I will tell you this though: I hauled a 30 pound back of camera equipment along with a 20 pound bag of clothes and it felt heavy as hell especially through snow, but I did it and now it feels like nothing.
I also lost a lot of the stress weight I had from all the eating I did at home catching up on work.
Which is appropriate because as I was waiting at a border patrol on the way back, I had a meeting with the new coworker that turned out to be a meeting with my boss boss and one of their underlings and they told me I have three weeks before I'm jobless lol
This is... bad?
Well I'm sure if you've read my posts here, I've been conflicted. To be honest, even Michelle was kind of annoyed by that job: she said any chance of intimacy we had was ruined because I was partially distracted by work.
And to be honest, now that I haven't stared at a screen for longer than 12 hours a day, walked around and enjoyed myself, and actually had free time to freely rest: I feel sooo much better too.
The money's good though, of course, but I kept thinking about how hard it is to enjoy the money if I don't have any time to take advantage of it. Like there were only two times I ever asked for leave from this job and this is that second time.
The first time had everything go to hell because no one understood to pay attention to turnaround times because of course they didn't lol
So yeah, I won't be making more money, but I will hopefully be healthier from less stress.
Good luck to my replacement though, she'll need it (I think she'll be fine anyway though, I have a vibe she was a nepot hire and there's a chance they might hire another sacrificial lamb at this rate).
More importantly, I can focus on my other job where it's also been ramping up quite a bit and has been bogged down. It's been a lot of working with an arm tied behind my back because of both of them getting so demanding and my own body feeling so run down.
Oh! I also worked on some photos for the first time in awhile: Philly from Camden on a very foggy day with my older camera and a lens that was being shitty (I learned later on that it isn't zeroed properly so the focus is eternally fuzzier than it should be (WHY)).
I also saw some of the worse parts of it; for example, the homelessness is very obvious as a number of them sleep under the brutalist designs of Bonaventure station--symbolism? On the other hand, I saw people allowed to protest for Palestine as well as show solidarity towards rail workers. The art programs that are still publicly funded also reflect the fact that it's a beautiful city and there's so much art and shows that I am going to have to partake in not-legal means if I want to watch because they support the fucking arts!
Hell, you want something really petty that doesn't matter but reflects how impressed I am up there? Their sandwiches are better.
Well, Perrigo's are, at least. It's a simple pre-made sandwich, but the quality is so much better compared to anything I pulled randomly from a Cumberland Farms or Wawa and that kind of annoys me that everyone's just so casual about it lol
I could give you a breakdown of what it was like getting there but I'd rather do it with photos and those I have no time to process.
I will tell you this though: I hauled a 30 pound back of camera equipment along with a 20 pound bag of clothes and it felt heavy as hell especially through snow, but I did it and now it feels like nothing.
I also lost a lot of the stress weight I had from all the eating I did at home catching up on work.
Which is appropriate because as I was waiting at a border patrol on the way back, I had a meeting with the new coworker that turned out to be a meeting with my boss boss and one of their underlings and they told me I have three weeks before I'm jobless lol
This is... bad?
Well I'm sure if you've read my posts here, I've been conflicted. To be honest, even Michelle was kind of annoyed by that job: she said any chance of intimacy we had was ruined because I was partially distracted by work.
And to be honest, now that I haven't stared at a screen for longer than 12 hours a day, walked around and enjoyed myself, and actually had free time to freely rest: I feel sooo much better too.
The money's good though, of course, but I kept thinking about how hard it is to enjoy the money if I don't have any time to take advantage of it. Like there were only two times I ever asked for leave from this job and this is that second time.
The first time had everything go to hell because no one understood to pay attention to turnaround times because of course they didn't lol
So yeah, I won't be making more money, but I will hopefully be healthier from less stress.
Good luck to my replacement though, she'll need it (I think she'll be fine anyway though, I have a vibe she was a nepot hire and there's a chance they might hire another sacrificial lamb at this rate).
More importantly, I can focus on my other job where it's also been ramping up quite a bit and has been bogged down. It's been a lot of working with an arm tied behind my back because of both of them getting so demanding and my own body feeling so run down.
Oh! I also worked on some photos for the first time in awhile: Philly from Camden on a very foggy day with my older camera and a lens that was being shitty (I learned later on that it isn't zeroed properly so the focus is eternally fuzzier than it should be (WHY)).
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No job is so important that you should be forced to give up most of your personal life and family time for it. I'd feel the same way if I was in your position.
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It sucks how much a lot boils down to money these days since this has not been a lucrative position for awhile, just a job that pays really well if treated like a part time (which it was until like a few months ago). I'm going to miss the extra capital but I also saw my health improve so much by not wasting a day behind a screen, so I've been wanting this for awhile. I still think they're screwed either way though.
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Ugh you can say that last part again, there's something very wrong today with well... I don't even know how to articulate it without risking crossing into the forbidden boundaries of finances and other private stuff. But I'm sure you know what I'm getting at though without me having to say it aloud, right? Not to mention just the way society treats being rich as a moral high ground of some sort.
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And yeah, I think I get what you're saying (and I won't go into the politics of that either for you lol).
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