No no, you don't understand. It's divine fate. It has to be. Don't worry about it, it's just something I need to accept by myself since I know that if I don't accept it now then I'll just be doomed to repeat the mistakes of the past. I've thought that it could be defeated before, but I was wrong. Terribly wrong. What I'm contemplating is that there is something inside me that I need to destroy or bury even deeper... deep enough so that it won't burn outside of me again and make me feel miserable.

There is truth to be said in ignorance is bliss. I just need to find that ignorance... and to continue sharpening my edge.